The bridge between me and everything...

Hello guys! I decided to write one next page from my traveling diary. This time I was visiting another city called Kehl in Germany. Kehl is in southern Germany located on the river Rhine opposite the city of Strasbourg, France. It is only one bridge away from one country to one another. Isn't it great? Things that make me think stuff like : Is that all there is? This simple?

Inspired by such places, the difference of weather and the envirement around had also made go deeply in my thoughts. Life is all about this huge bridges after all...You just have to be sure which one you choose to be happy. But first you need to pick some of them just by chance so you can try how it works and taste the feeling you get. By letting it flow naturally, you will finally know what it is hidden there, no matter what you have heard before. Go for it! Travel in time and space and explore. Grow differently everytime you have the chance. Find another perspective and walk through that damn bridge between you and everything. It is healthy for your mind!

Escaping for Christmas...

Hello everyone! I'm writing from frome the other side! At least you could see that I'm trying to tell you I'm not sorry for leaving Tirana! lol
Yeah, I'm staying at my lifetime friend who lives in Strasbourg, France. Guess what? Strasbourg is not just a random city here but is known also as the Capital of Christmas in France! You know how much I adore this time...Here are some random pictures from my first day here and it was awesome. I have always adored the cities of west Europe from the architecture style, it's weather, lifestyle and everything. I would love to move here now that I'm thinking but let's not talk about it...

A little escaping from time to time is always a good idea especially when you choose a happy places at the right time! 

Days before you came...

Days before the cold came, leaves were still falling down from the trees and the sun was shining in pink. And that was quite nice. Days before you came the sun was shining every day but it wasn't warm enough. Days before you came the skies were just blue...as always. No other colors, no other clouds, not even rainbows. I mean, how can you stand the same blue sky everyday. Nothing different to see up there where looking for an answer or just wondering about something, somewhere, somehow. Days before you came wasn't this cold but it felt colder.
 Then the Autumn left by giving me the best gift it could give. It gave me the best thing who would help me be more peaceful, more patient and less stubborn. Like I could finally stop for a second, thinking everything is going under the plan. It's all in my had. Yeah, I'm happy, I'm full, I'm free and I'm more myself that I could ever be. Thank you Autumn for coming so fast and leaving so peacefully. Now I know how to deal with these sweet cold December days. I mean...Days before you came were much more colder...

Venus tales...

Patience is the answer to your brightest side. Be patient even when you're in pain because it will bring you to a place of understanding. That's exactly what happened to me. I found my place of understanding and I would like to describe it as a "Venus" . You know...my relationship with the Universe and everything superstitious has grown way too serious. I can almost feel the energy of every star or zodiac constellations moving around and making big things happen while I do my best to let it be the way it is. Me as a sign ruled by the planet of beauty, love and sensuality, have just found the best half ruled by the same planet and it feels like nothing but home. I'm living a life which most of the time feels like the movies of a young artist living nowadays. Fast, colorful, bright, loud, wild and restless. The unification of two halves of a whole has just happened and is karmically linked by sharing a love of art, poetry, music and culture. What do you get when two signs ruled by Venus fall in love? 

Innerbloom

These pictures were taken during our brainstorming weekend with my colleagues at a touristic village near my hometown. My dear camera couldn't be missed even there. The best part about our team is the spirit of feeling "home" . This is why we chose a place where we would be comfortable enough and get to know better each-other and our ideas. It's almost Christmas time and we've had so much work to do but I'm enjoying it a lot as long as it contains this sparkling spirit about giving without a thought of getting. So we stayed one night in this relaxing place, bonding and wondering about the near future projects. At night we watched movies that would get us more in the Christmas mood. We kept notes, talked a lot, took pictures and in the end we also played some games! It was the best relaxing-working-weekend I've ever had. 

It's in my frequency...

Phase 2 : Do you ever feel like you're living really fast? I don't know if it's me or the whole universe is focused in my being but I really feel like I'm living fast. Like the days pass by so easy, so quickly, so not heavy. Sometimes I'm even surprised that the weekend knocked on my door! Like some kind of an energy is keeping me very active I'm appreciating everything that comes, everything that goes, everything I have. I am blessed. 

"The key is this : Meet today's problems with today's strength. Don't start tanckling tomorrow's problems until tomorrow. You do not have tomorrow's strength yet. You simply have enough for today!" - Max Lucado 

And the world smiles back at you...

Do you think you have the power to describe what happiness is? For me is the little moments when your smile is almost frozen from one corner of your face to another. Reasons? Who needs reasons when you finally feel your heart beating after such a long time. Who needs reasons when you feel all your inner system becoming fulfilled. I can almost feel colorful lights blowing from my eyes because of that little moment. I'm made by those little moments and I'm also glad to have known pain for now I'm sure what I really want and what the whole world needs. My trip is still long but I don't have any final destination as long as I'm enjoying it all. It makes me stay alive, on my feet, forever young, forever free!

A state of Empathy

If nothing else, one day you can look someone in the eye and say : "But I lived through it. And it made me who I am today."

I really think that everybody has gone through something that has changed them in a way that they could never go back to the person that once were. But here stands the beauty of it all! I mean, don't you love the feeling when things are about to change? Like when you know that in a few seconds you're going to do something and become someone else?

Lately I have realized that's what I actually do everyday. I wake up early and go to school and after I finish my classes I go straight to work. Sometimes, after work I find the time to take some pictures. Sometimes I do something "extraordinary" for myself. Then I may find myself doing extra work in designing or blogging and taking care of my little kitten etc... Now imagine that through all these activities how many other things might have happen in between! Accepting everything as it is and creating my own happiness just like I dream of it. This is why I can admit I'm happy! 

All of me

Nothing is permanent in this wicked world, not even our troubles. People come, people go, time passes by, everything changes and nothing is never ever the same. Not even you. Sometimes I feel like my heart is so big and my mind open enough to let new big things happen in my life for reasons I'm not always sure. It's in my nature to let things happen as they come and let them be as they are. I'm one of those people who believes that the Universe has struggled a lot by exchanging energies to make that thing happen for one good reason. Good...or bad, it happens for a reason. I think I have lived this enough to prove it. It is all a process...this is why nothing is permanent in this wicked world. You get born, you love, you share, do good, make mistakes, get into trouble, you learn, you grow and get back to where you belonged. Do you know where you belong? I do. I belong to me! I belong to my crazy ideas in the early mornings, to the hardworking hours full of passion for what I'm doing. I belong to the irreplaceable feeling of living every moment. I belong to my desires and my dreams. I'm the servant of my body and I do the best I can to let my soul be. Nothing less, nothing more. 

Everywhere the devil spits, Poison Ivy grows

Here I am, once again wearing another Halloween costume. This time I was totally inspired by the Dark Knight trilogy. Everything started from the "Suicide Squad" movie where everyone got amazed by Harley Quinn and everything. So yeah, I'm one of those people who thought that every girl would like to look like Harley for Halloween. Besides, Poison Ivy was a redhead superwoman who I totally adore. I tried to put myself in her role and the make up wasn't that hard to be done as you can tell. I only had to straighten my hair which happens very very rarely.

Cold lights

A daydreamer living in this cold reality is someone who thinks that knows what is searching for but never really sure when it comes to being happy. Are you happy? Am I happy? Am I really searching for happiness? Do I really want to know? This post is dedicated to the "Fall" as another concept seen from my last experiences in situations I've never been before with people I never thought I'd spend time. There comes a moment in your life when you choose to give up everything that doesn't count on your healthy state of mind. You choose not to worry about anything. Not caring about anyone. You awaken your hidden demons to play they role by acting like a gentlewoman. This is the process of growing cold. Yes, I think I have grown a little cold thinking I'm fine. Thinking I'm okay on my own.
This is how I live actually. I'm always trying to put myself into trouble so I will have a large knowledge about my limits as a human being. In the beginning, everything seems to be great. A whole new adventure sparkling my eyes and covering my body in indescribable emotions. Days go by and I realize I have changed ways of thinking about stuff. Also my lifestyle changes but I still let it come and go naturally. The end is near when I start feeling pain for no good reason. Am I missing something? Someone? Myself?
There comes the light...it's a cold one so it can freeze you so much you need to go back home. To your warm, sweet home. To yourself. 

A Vintage Soul

Remember Aeterno? The online shop with redesigned second hand clothes was in a fair for young entrepreneurs these days at the National Museum. I was invited to be there as part of the staff wearing this lovely shirt by Aeterno. I was so happy to get into it because of that color I totally adore and of course, my relationship with over sized shirts has always been very serious. Feels so good to be a model of this unique brand because of the spirit they are trying to bring. I mean, you can always use the waste with a little creativity and turn it into something new and beautiful. Also fashion can be recycled! I'm so proud of these guys! Keep reusing, reducing, recycling and create your own unique style! 

Fall prints and colors

From the series of "Feel the Spotlight" event, under my third outfit from Springfield.

This time wearing this jeans dress covered by this cute and soft scarf which keeps you warm enough during the cold days of Autumn. Totally in love with it's prints and colours. 

"It's Fall Again"

Here's another post from "Feel the  Spotlight" event, showing my second look from Springfield. This new Autumn collection "It's Fall again" was really cool! By making up some good combinations I could stay under my ordinary days kind of style. The colours of the second outfit brought me images of the fall more than any other look. I was wearing this striped shirt because, you know, stripes are always a good idea! I fell in love with this brown suede jacket like I always do with every suede thing...I have to admit it. Also the colour of this skirt was exactly the same with my shoes. It just made me part of the falling leaves of the beautiful Fall. 

"Feel the Spotlight"

Hello guys! This time I'm about to post something new on the blog. Well, since I have started working as a graphic designer at a marketing and communication agency called Connext Albania I have found myself through some other new experiences. Like I mentioned a little at the latest post, my this year be as strange as the last one! This time we had to promote the store of Springfield in Tirana, TEG coming with a new interior. 

"Feel the Spotlight" is a contest designed by us and Fashion Group Albania for the new Autumn collection of Springfield. Here we go!

Autumn killed the summer with the softest kiss...

There are two times of the year : Autumn and waiting for Autumn. The season of cozy sweaters, warm drinks, soft cuddles and cool walks. Besides, Autumn is the season of my favorite colors and clothes. We're finally back to boyfriend jeans, suede shoes and jackets. Every Autumn is never the same to me. Is that time of the year when I go back in time and try to think of everything I have experienced this year. A moment of reflection. Now that I'm thinking, this year was the year of life changing experiences. I've put myself in so many situations that in a kind of way have grown me stronger and a little wilder. Don't know how to thank all the people I've met this year for making it unforgettable. I know myself better everyday by having new friends as often as possible. You know why? Cause thanks new people you meet everyday you always learn new stuff and try to experience the new stuff. This is growing healthy as a free-indipendent-free will person. I'm so glad to have achieved many goals this year thanks to the good energy surrounding me. Starting from the school days which have been pretty awesome to relaxing and fun days with the best people in the city, working days to the sad and a little heartbreaking days... But never really had boring days! Thank you Autumn for reminding me this! 

When in doubt, travel!

No longer then yesterday I had this other trip in another interesting place of Albania. You know how much I like to discover new places. I'm always the "take me anywhere" kind of person so I can wander and escape. This time we decided to visit the Canyons of Osumi river which is one of the most spectacular natural attractions of my country. But before arriving there, we had a long trip ahead starting with the first destination which was Berat that I have already visited but always worth it to stop for a while.

Cool shades of dark beauty

It's summer time and yeah the best season for weddings! I was invited in a special wedding these days so you can tell I was so excited to change my look like I do once in a while. This time I chose to wear something that would remind you of the 60s look. Starting from my hair which is done in a vintage style with long waves and middle-parted 70s straight style. I also tried to put an impeccable make-up using thick eyeliner and matte red lipstick. I am very grateful to the best hairdresser and make-up artist who made all this real!
 

"Double Trouble"

Hello guys! Here's another post dedicated to my latest photoshoot for the best online shop in town : Aeterno Shop ! This time wearing what fits me most, unisex, black T-shirts! I mean...I've been wearing these kind of tees since I was a kid and didn't really mind if it was my dad's one. The number of black T-shirts in my closet is really big and I never get tired of buying them for the main reason that are very comfortable but they also make you look thinner, can be easily combined, anyone can wear them no matter the gender and the last but not the least, black tees are never out of fashion! I always feel myself inside them! Similar as mine was also the other tee worn by this cool guy!
We say out loud : "Don't be like the rest of them darling!" 

"Dark Shadows and Red Highlights"

Bodies are merely a shell that conceal our heavenly souls...Think about it! Does the beauty of our being live only inside our shell? People keep saying that quite a lot but lately I've been thinking about it as a justification from people who don't feel very good with their appearance. I mean, what's the problem? I embrace the saying "Beauty is relative!" because who dares to decide the opposite? Who has this power? What's ugly for me, is not to you and I think THIS is beautiful!
If you have a good soul, your body will show in all it's different ways. Your eyes grow big when you find yourself daydreaming. Your lips seem to be so soft when your heart is wrapped by love. Your smile brings out all the joy screaming there inside and your tears are a sign of a pure and sensitive being who just tried to deal with reality. And oh, your pale face and soft skin...
The way you do your hair also says a lot about you. What's your favorite color? Why that color? Is not very difficult to notice right? What about the dark lipstick? Is it part of your philosophy? How about the way you get dressed? 

Gone with my Sins...

It was one of those rare days when I'm finally free in the morning time to take care of my passions. After a long time I finally met one of my favorite photographers nowadays in Albania and also such a special mate who mostly works with film cameras. For years now we have taken lots of pictures together and believe me, being a model in front of a film camera is not that easy! It takes much more time to take a good picture than it actually does with a digital one. Besides, you cannot take as many pictures as you want so before you shoot, make sure that shot is amazing!

The reason why I find this activity so interesting is mostly about our love of making art out of a little box. This kind of pictures bring out a different me who I miss a lot and I realize it by the moment I have these pictures scanned and I'm like "Wow, is it me or...?" 

"Love's cradle"

"We're all a little weird. And life's a little weird. And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness - and call it love - true love."

Weird isn't it? Have you ever met someone whose weirdness is compatible with yours? I guess I have! There are many of them there surrounding me actually. There are many humans who actually embrace my weirdness and love me for who I really am. Some of them I'd like to call 'once in a lifetime soul buddies' for the main reason that I can share with them all the things that bother me in my everyday life, all my sad stories and heart breaking moments, all the dark thoughts inside my head and all the demons dancing inside my heart and how much I love to do good and be good to every living being! I might be boring sometimes but this is how we were created. I mean we're very complicated and that's the beauty of it all. This is why we're creative and wild and free. It is all about creating your own cirlce (just like Kurisu's) and putting there all the things you adore, all the people that you want to be with no matter the feelings, your unnatural imagination and then, create what makes you happy until you find peace with yourself and satisfaction with the environment surrounding you. 

"White City"

Since I've been very busy on some projects, I finally found the time to post some pictures I took a couple of months ago when I visited another city of Albania for the first time. Always choosing ancient cities especially those where artworks are saved through years. 

I'm talking about the city of Berat! Located in south-central of Albania, it's old town called "Mangalem" is inscribed on the UNESCO World Heritage List. It's name is derived by old Bulgarian which means "White City" . But what makes this city so special? Scroll down!

Keep it simple stupid!

Here I come again, wearing another lovely shirt from the Aeterno Shop . Stripes never go out of style but be very careful how you wear them. There's a cute quotation for us designers called "KISS" which means : Keep it simple stupid! I guess, at the Aeterno you can find simple, old but fashionable shirts and other stuff to always look unique! I, myself don't really like mixing patterns so I put on some simple comfy pants and my favorite black coat from Mango brand.  It is quite fun being a photo model, especially when I can be myself. You know, the joy of dressing is an art! 

Little Red Riding Hood

Once upon a time there was a little girl that all she ever wanted was wanderlusting around the forest. Her hair was so red so everyone in the town called her, the Little Red Riding Hood. One day the Little Red Riding Hood, decided to take a long walk around the forest to enjoy the warm spring day. While enjoying her time alone, there was a dark shadow approaching out of the forest behind her...

"Less is more..."

Photo modeling again for "Aeterno" this time in a tomboy outfit! I have to admit that I'm very used to get into tomboy looks, especially when I have to go through a long and busy day where skirts and dresses can't be your best buddy. So this time I was wearing another over sized checkered shirt which actually fits a lot with my hair color. Also the long waist pants have this attractive pattern of tiny squares. So cozy! Part of the outfit were also my suet cherry shoes just for a soft contrast in between colors. 

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Last Winter Walk

Hello everyone! This post is dedicated to the latest online shop with unique, vintage and grunge clothes called "Aeterno" . They asked me to have a collaboration with them so I had this photoshoot advertising the clothes. 

* Check the online page here : https://aeternoshop.wordpress.com/

You can also check the latest collection on instagram : https://www.instagram.com/aeternoshop/

and the facebook page of course : https://www.facebook.com/aeternoshop/

Under my golden wings...

As promised from the previous post, here's also the final product from my "Golden phase" fashion design collection. I made some sketches inspired by Gustav Klimt paintings and chose to focus on designing a scarf by using some of the most important elements such as the rectangular black shapes, colorful circle, the eye symbol etc. 

Here are some ideas of how the scarf would look like :

"Golden phase"

Are you ready to see my latest fashion design sketches? Sure, you are! This time using some super powers to bring up a new trend inspired by whatever we enjoyed ourselves the most. I didn't think it twice but immediately chose to create a collection inspired by the sparkling and heavenly paintings of the god of golden art : Gustav Klimt! He was a symbolist painter who was most influenced by Japanese art and it's method. Guess you have noticed my obsession about japan culture and also golden details and symbols so yeah, Klimt was all I could wish for. This thing up is my Mood board dominated by the portrait of Adele Bloch - Bauer. One of my favorites after "The Kiss" , "Death and Life" , "Hygeia" etc. 

A misled sun

So, like every once in a while a choose to take trips and pass a relaxing weekend not very far from here, in Macedonia. I have visited many places there actually. In some cities I feel like in Albania, I mean, I know almost all the places to go, clothes where to buy, bars etc. This time I prefered the mountain. Almost every winter I go in Mavrovo during holidays , practicing my skiing skills since a little girl, but trust me, it doesn't feel the same every year...Anyway, this time I was in Bitola and got very disappointed and mad that there was no snow. Such a heartbreaking moment when climbing the mountain and hoping you'll find a little snow. Such a stupid winter this year, right? It feels like spring already and I don't think I'm enough wearing my favorite coats and boots! Nevermind the snow, I enjoyed the weekend there. I always need such breaks sometimes...it feels like disappearing completely from all the things waiting you behind. How I wish it was this easy to leave and forget it all. Not knowing when your mind and heart would take you. Just leave. Then come back if you miss being back again. But reality is wrong and I have to go back trying hard to make my dreams come true. Sadly, this is what life's all about.

"Archishion!"

This other project was about turning architecture into fashion design. Each one of students had to find inspiration in some buildings especially their facade, details but without loosing the silhouette. So, yeah, basically this project was similar to the "Stained Dress" I worked on at the last workshop "Tirana Dress Me Up!" 

I have to mention that the only and main difference was the process. The process was all that really mattered in this project. You'll see! 

Gothic fashion designs

Hello guys! This time I'd like to show one of my fashion design projects I've been working on this semester. We were told to draw some fashion design sketches inspired by another kind of art or anything. There were many ideas going through my mind but the first thing I was thinking about was a project based on a "Throwback" of Victorian style. I was trying to bring out another modern rhyme of this style but then I got confused by wondering of Gothic architecture. Yeah, you know how much I love it! So, according to these inspirations I made my own studies and picked the most important details of Gothic architecture and turned them into clothing sketches.