Fixed Sign

Dear blog,

It's been a long time since I haven't shared a thing with you. Reasons? There's plenty of reasons. You know I never come up with decisions if I don't have some good reasons. I'm a fixed sign...I'm a Taurus and it's not that easy to handle that. Haven't posted a thing since January 27th and oh well, this explains a lot. But to be true to you and everyone who has followed "Circle of Kurisu" for years now, this period has been the hardest, the most tiring, the most difficult and at the same time, the most important and the best time of my life until now. It's not that I just couldn't find the time to take pictures and post here. Besides that, I have to say that I've had a lot of important stuff to do and to fix starting with my being. I've put myself in a mess of difficulties so I could prove my skills...So I could convince myself that I'm ready enough to make my dreams come true.

The best part is that I did it at some points. There was a period where I couldn't get up of my bed every damn morning. I became so depressed I have found myself crying everyday before starting my day. There was a lot of negative energy surrounding me and that all was because of the people who I had to work with or stay with...doesn't really matter. Have always kept in mind that everything happens for a reason and the reason was making me stronger...this time, as a professional one. Yes, I did it. I finished the Bachelor and made it to do a good job for my diploma project. It wasn't easy. It was very hard and I'm very sure that it became harder because of the selfish people affecting in everything without being required. I thank myself for trusting my intuition and the love in my heart for showing out the best of me, the real me.

At the last post I have mentioned that balance is the key and yeah I have practiced it a lot. So let me find the time to thank all of the people who believed and me and did their very best to calm my darkest days. Starting from my family who have always supported me...I say to you, this is only the beginning...Your daughter has way bigger plans and you know that! My friends, my biggest joy of my everyday life who always appreciated what I've done. Last but not least, got to thank my lover for wiping away my tears and pushing me to shine because he really saw my deepest wishes and darkest fears. Thank you for inspiring me!

Now I find myself at the most perfect place I could be. I appreciate everything surrounding me. I appreciate the tiring days, the lazy days, the worst nights and the worst rainy mornings. Because in the end, life is what you make it. No matter what happens, do the best you can and never give up. You will never know what happens next. There will be a lot of breakdowns everyday in your life starting from your house, to your school, the office you're working, everywhere. Friendly advice : Be positive and the most important, be yourself. Never be afraid to share your opinion, your feelings, your dreams. Think about your goal and work for it everyday. While you're doing your best, the whole universe is moving planets to make your dream come true. All you need to do is staying true to yourself and the ones you're dealing with.

Don't be a copy just because you might think it will be easier to handle life. You will never be really happy. Be you and fight all of the battles because only that will set your soul free.

In case you're asking, I'm exactly where I wanted to be. Living with the people I love, having the job I always wished for and enjoying the sunsets to take some pictures. Being a designer nowadays is not easy too as long as we're conquered by commercialism and kitsch style, kitsch people...whatever. That's another story...

Soon you will find "Circle of Kurisu" in another dimension. Everything needs it's right time. Until then, enjoy the pictures. Thank you for your time! 

B for Balance

Balance is the key to everything. What we do, think, say, eat, feel, they all require awareness and through this awareness we can grow. Lately I've realized that everything surrounding you is all under your control. Whatever you decide to do, remember that you either hold on to it or just let it go. We're the things we do, think, say, eat, feel, we're made of them and there's nothing that can control you as long they're you. It is you who has the power to control your mind, your dreams, desires, pleasures. Deal with them to become real. Learn to live between effort and surrender. Do yourself a favor and go under the risk. Find your limits and choose your destiny calculating your moments of activity, thoughts, expressions, moments, joy and sadness. I consider myself a bunch of conflicting statements but it feels so good to know. 

"Psychedelic Lovers"

"Psychedelic Lovers" was not just a random event when you're invited by your friends on facebook just by chance. This was a music festival organised by someone who has tried anything on his own to bring the Psychedelic music and Psy culture in Albania. It's inspiring how much he loves this all he would do anything to make people realize what he wants to express by playing his music and feel the same way as he does. For him Psy trance is much more than just music. This event made me understand this even more!

Psy trance is a subgenre of trance music which was born long before synthesizers defined modern music. This music belonged to the free spirits, the hippies who moved in Goa, India for a better lifestyle where there were beaches, friendly people, low cost living, Indian religion and spiritual practices. Their freer living made them experience a lot and bring another point of view to the rest of the world where the main basics were : Love, Peace and Respect. 

This music has the power to make you dance as it is an active meditation when you go beyond your thoughts and imagination, beyond the person you think you are. You let your body free under the rhythm of music with layered melodies and high tempo riffs. This experiences open your mind to new challenges by giving you the right answers about your origins and where you actually belong. You start to value more the nature surrounding you cause it makes you feel wild, free and primitive so you realize the genesis of everything around. It's whole mission stands in finding your inner peace and making believe that you have the power to make anything happen. What made human race come until here after all when they were all alone in space and time? 

This guy toughed me well all of these even though I was aware of spiritual exercises and books. He's passion about this all made me get so involved I wanted to participate by giving a hand in designing the posters, tickets and handmade crafts used for decorations in such rave just like hippies used to do in their time. Phosphorescent colors are the main theme of decorations and special symbols related to Goa culture.

The party started from 5 Pm untill 11 in the morning when people where tired as hell by dancing and jumping and exchanging energies with all the power they could have. Everything went perfectly well it made me feel so proud about him. This was his 7th Psy festival in the history of Psy in Tirana and the first time for me. Believe it or not, it was the best night of my life! 

"Le Petit France"

Hello everyone! Since I came back from my best holidays ever, I've had to deal with all the school projects I had to finish and so many other works to be done. So basically, I've been very busy to post on the blog but randomly I got reminded of some pictures I hadn't posted yet. Seems like I finally found some little time to introduce you with "Le Petit France" ! 

Petite France is a historical quarter of Strasbourg which used to be the home of city's tanners, millers and fishermen in Middle Ages. It is characterized by its canal system and half timbered buildings. Now it is one of the main tourist attractions. I totally fell in love with the colourful old buildings which mostly date from the 16th and 17th centuries.

This small town made me wonder a lot. I had this feeling like I was little too...Maybe just like the "Petit Prince" but not a prince.  

Dear Santa...

...I can explain! 

Christmas spirit also knocked at the door of Aeterno Shop with their lovely squared shirts, Here's mine!
Feeling comfortable and looking cute , wrapped by these lights which instantly make me feel like a child again. 

Rooms full of Art.

One of the days of my sweet escape in France was dedicated to the Museum of Modern and Contemporary Art of Strasbourg. This museum was founded in 1973 and opened in its own building in November 1998. This huge building hides inside a total of 18000 work of arts including paintings, sculptures, photographs, graphic arts, multimedia and design from the period of impressionism until nowadays. The building is designed by the Parisian architect Adrien Fainsilber and it's located at the edge of the old quarter of the city, called "Le Petit France" . It's minimalist interior is another good reason to visit this museum. It's design is light, airy which is very relaxing for the eye. There you can fin find permanent collections of the greatest artists such as : Picasso, Pissaro, Rodin, Braque, Kandinsky, Jean Arp from Strasbourg etc.

The bridge between me and everything...

Hello guys! I decided to write one next page from my traveling diary. This time I was visiting another city called Kehl in Germany. Kehl is in southern Germany located on the river Rhine opposite the city of Strasbourg, France. It is only one bridge away from one country to one another. Isn't it great? Things that make me think stuff like : Is that all there is? This simple?

Inspired by such places, the difference of weather and the envirement around had also made go deeply in my thoughts. Life is all about this huge bridges after all...You just have to be sure which one you choose to be happy. But first you need to pick some of them just by chance so you can try how it works and taste the feeling you get. By letting it flow naturally, you will finally know what it is hidden there, no matter what you have heard before. Go for it! Travel in time and space and explore. Grow differently everytime you have the chance. Find another perspective and walk through that damn bridge between you and everything. It is healthy for your mind!

Escaping for Christmas...

Hello everyone! I'm writing from frome the other side! At least you could see that I'm trying to tell you I'm not sorry for leaving Tirana! lol
Yeah, I'm staying at my lifetime friend who lives in Strasbourg, France. Guess what? Strasbourg is not just a random city here but is known also as the Capital of Christmas in France! You know how much I adore this time...Here are some random pictures from my first day here and it was awesome. I have always adored the cities of west Europe from the architecture style, it's weather, lifestyle and everything. I would love to move here now that I'm thinking but let's not talk about it...

A little escaping from time to time is always a good idea especially when you choose a happy places at the right time! 

Days before you came...

Days before the cold came, leaves were still falling down from the trees and the sun was shining in pink. And that was quite nice. Days before you came the sun was shining every day but it wasn't warm enough. Days before you came the skies were just blue...as always. No other colors, no other clouds, not even rainbows. I mean, how can you stand the same blue sky everyday. Nothing different to see up there where looking for an answer or just wondering about something, somewhere, somehow. Days before you came wasn't this cold but it felt colder.
 Then the Autumn left by giving me the best gift it could give. It gave me the best thing who would help me be more peaceful, more patient and less stubborn. Like I could finally stop for a second, thinking everything is going under the plan. It's all in my had. Yeah, I'm happy, I'm full, I'm free and I'm more myself that I could ever be. Thank you Autumn for coming so fast and leaving so peacefully. Now I know how to deal with these sweet cold December days. I mean...Days before you came were much more colder...

Venus tales...

Patience is the answer to your brightest side. Be patient even when you're in pain because it will bring you to a place of understanding. That's exactly what happened to me. I found my place of understanding and I would like to describe it as a "Venus" . You know...my relationship with the Universe and everything superstitious has grown way too serious. I can almost feel the energy of every star or zodiac constellations moving around and making big things happen while I do my best to let it be the way it is. Me as a sign ruled by the planet of beauty, love and sensuality, have just found the best half ruled by the same planet and it feels like nothing but home. I'm living a life which most of the time feels like the movies of a young artist living nowadays. Fast, colorful, bright, loud, wild and restless. The unification of two halves of a whole has just happened and is karmically linked by sharing a love of art, poetry, music and culture. What do you get when two signs ruled by Venus fall in love? 

Innerbloom

These pictures were taken during our brainstorming weekend with my colleagues at a touristic village near my hometown. My dear camera couldn't be missed even there. The best part about our team is the spirit of feeling "home" . This is why we chose a place where we would be comfortable enough and get to know better each-other and our ideas. It's almost Christmas time and we've had so much work to do but I'm enjoying it a lot as long as it contains this sparkling spirit about giving without a thought of getting. So we stayed one night in this relaxing place, bonding and wondering about the near future projects. At night we watched movies that would get us more in the Christmas mood. We kept notes, talked a lot, took pictures and in the end we also played some games! It was the best relaxing-working-weekend I've ever had. 

It's in my frequency...

Phase 2 : Do you ever feel like you're living really fast? I don't know if it's me or the whole universe is focused in my being but I really feel like I'm living fast. Like the days pass by so easy, so quickly, so not heavy. Sometimes I'm even surprised that the weekend knocked on my door! Like some kind of an energy is keeping me very active I'm appreciating everything that comes, everything that goes, everything I have. I am blessed. 

"The key is this : Meet today's problems with today's strength. Don't start tanckling tomorrow's problems until tomorrow. You do not have tomorrow's strength yet. You simply have enough for today!" - Max Lucado 

And the world smiles back at you...

Do you think you have the power to describe what happiness is? For me is the little moments when your smile is almost frozen from one corner of your face to another. Reasons? Who needs reasons when you finally feel your heart beating after such a long time. Who needs reasons when you feel all your inner system becoming fulfilled. I can almost feel colorful lights blowing from my eyes because of that little moment. I'm made by those little moments and I'm also glad to have known pain for now I'm sure what I really want and what the whole world needs. My trip is still long but I don't have any final destination as long as I'm enjoying it all. It makes me stay alive, on my feet, forever young, forever free!

A state of Empathy

If nothing else, one day you can look someone in the eye and say : "But I lived through it. And it made me who I am today."

I really think that everybody has gone through something that has changed them in a way that they could never go back to the person that once were. But here stands the beauty of it all! I mean, don't you love the feeling when things are about to change? Like when you know that in a few seconds you're going to do something and become someone else?

Lately I have realized that's what I actually do everyday. I wake up early and go to school and after I finish my classes I go straight to work. Sometimes, after work I find the time to take some pictures. Sometimes I do something "extraordinary" for myself. Then I may find myself doing extra work in designing or blogging and taking care of my little kitten etc... Now imagine that through all these activities how many other things might have happen in between! Accepting everything as it is and creating my own happiness just like I dream of it. This is why I can admit I'm happy! 

All of me

Nothing is permanent in this wicked world, not even our troubles. People come, people go, time passes by, everything changes and nothing is never ever the same. Not even you. Sometimes I feel like my heart is so big and my mind open enough to let new big things happen in my life for reasons I'm not always sure. It's in my nature to let things happen as they come and let them be as they are. I'm one of those people who believes that the Universe has struggled a lot by exchanging energies to make that thing happen for one good reason. Good...or bad, it happens for a reason. I think I have lived this enough to prove it. It is all a process...this is why nothing is permanent in this wicked world. You get born, you love, you share, do good, make mistakes, get into trouble, you learn, you grow and get back to where you belonged. Do you know where you belong? I do. I belong to me! I belong to my crazy ideas in the early mornings, to the hardworking hours full of passion for what I'm doing. I belong to the irreplaceable feeling of living every moment. I belong to my desires and my dreams. I'm the servant of my body and I do the best I can to let my soul be. Nothing less, nothing more. 

Everywhere the devil spits, Poison Ivy grows

Here I am, once again wearing another Halloween costume. This time I was totally inspired by the Dark Knight trilogy. Everything started from the "Suicide Squad" movie where everyone got amazed by Harley Quinn and everything. So yeah, I'm one of those people who thought that every girl would like to look like Harley for Halloween. Besides, Poison Ivy was a redhead superwoman who I totally adore. I tried to put myself in her role and the make up wasn't that hard to be done as you can tell. I only had to straighten my hair which happens very very rarely.

Cold lights

A daydreamer living in this cold reality is someone who thinks that knows what is searching for but never really sure when it comes to being happy. Are you happy? Am I happy? Am I really searching for happiness? Do I really want to know? This post is dedicated to the "Fall" as another concept seen from my last experiences in situations I've never been before with people I never thought I'd spend time. There comes a moment in your life when you choose to give up everything that doesn't count on your healthy state of mind. You choose not to worry about anything. Not caring about anyone. You awaken your hidden demons to play they role by acting like a gentlewoman. This is the process of growing cold. Yes, I think I have grown a little cold thinking I'm fine. Thinking I'm okay on my own.
This is how I live actually. I'm always trying to put myself into trouble so I will have a large knowledge about my limits as a human being. In the beginning, everything seems to be great. A whole new adventure sparkling my eyes and covering my body in indescribable emotions. Days go by and I realize I have changed ways of thinking about stuff. Also my lifestyle changes but I still let it come and go naturally. The end is near when I start feeling pain for no good reason. Am I missing something? Someone? Myself?
There comes the light...it's a cold one so it can freeze you so much you need to go back home. To your warm, sweet home. To yourself. 

A Vintage Soul

Remember Aeterno? The online shop with redesigned second hand clothes was in a fair for young entrepreneurs these days at the National Museum. I was invited to be there as part of the staff wearing this lovely shirt by Aeterno. I was so happy to get into it because of that color I totally adore and of course, my relationship with over sized shirts has always been very serious. Feels so good to be a model of this unique brand because of the spirit they are trying to bring. I mean, you can always use the waste with a little creativity and turn it into something new and beautiful. Also fashion can be recycled! I'm so proud of these guys! Keep reusing, reducing, recycling and create your own unique style! 

Fall prints and colors

From the series of "Feel the Spotlight" event, under my third outfit from Springfield.

This time wearing this jeans dress covered by this cute and soft scarf which keeps you warm enough during the cold days of Autumn. Totally in love with it's prints and colours. 

"It's Fall Again"

Here's another post from "Feel the  Spotlight" event, showing my second look from Springfield. This new Autumn collection "It's Fall again" was really cool! By making up some good combinations I could stay under my ordinary days kind of style. The colours of the second outfit brought me images of the fall more than any other look. I was wearing this striped shirt because, you know, stripes are always a good idea! I fell in love with this brown suede jacket like I always do with every suede thing...I have to admit it. Also the colour of this skirt was exactly the same with my shoes. It just made me part of the falling leaves of the beautiful Fall.